Sunday, February 26, 2012

For Just a Little While....

For just a little while,
You held me close to your heart.
Your voice was sweet and gentle,
I loved you from the start.

But then I heard you say
That you didn’t want me to be born.
And so those cold instruments took hold of me,
And from you I was torn.
God had a special plan for me,
One that He wanted you to share.
I would have loved growing up with you,
If my life you had spared.
There was so much you could have taught me,
It could have been such fun.
Now I will never sit on your lap,
Go barefoot, swing, play, hop and run.
Mommy, I’m not mad at you,
And I’m sorry I got in your way.
But my little soul lives on in Heaven,
And I hope to see you one day.
I believe that when you get to Heaven,
You will know me and love me, too.
And if you have the time,
We’ll sit and talk and find lots of things to do.
Jesus said on the cross, “Father, forgive them,
They know not what they do.”
Mommy, Jesus loves you and forgives you,
And I do too.

Arthur, age 75
Source: http://christiananswers.net/life/stories-abortion2.html

Sunday, February 12, 2012

All in a day's work.

You know as women we tend to do so much. Day in and day out, sometimes it takes a complete stranger's shocked "you do all that?!" to bring this into perspective.

We take so much of what we do for granted, it's like we come with an automatic "forget I did that" button. No, no it's not gloating but definitely praise.

What a wonderful thing! We are able to accomplish so much in a DAY!! Sorry fellas but you can't top that haha!! Okay maybe that one was totally gloating.

It makes me feel proud to know that God designed us women to be able to do all we do. We take care of husbands, babies, parents, extended family, friends, home, schooling (for those that home school), work-whether at home or outside the home, volunteer, church and SO much more!!

In essence, everything we do we do because we love to take care of our loved ones, it makes me happy to wake up early in the morning to give my 6 month old his heart medication, to start a pot of coffee and read my Bible. To see my husband off to PT, welcome him back and serve breakfast, to see my older kids come happily downstairs to enjoy the family breakfast, to see daddy off to finish the rest of the day. To clean after my family, to watch my kids finish their morning chores, to begin homeschooling, to share all the meals, the laughter, the MEMORIES we are making!

In the process not only are my children learning more about family life, loving and caring about each other, but to be honest, I learn as well. I have been a career woman, I have been a business woman working from home achieving amazing recognition, I have done it ALL, at the end of the day though, I am SO utterly HAPPY to be right here, right now.

At home with my husband, our children. Cooking, cleaning, educating, guiding, loving, caring and learning. RIGHT WHERE I BELONG.

ALL in a days work ;)

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Lord give me YOUR eyes so I can see..

I saw the following posted by a FB friend and wanted to share.

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her,'Now that you can see ...the world, will.................. you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat. Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven. Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets. Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet. And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank God your alive.

Please copy and pass the message on......

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Kicking and screaming in the New Year.....

Okay so I am not literally doing so (although sometimes I have been seriously contemplating it) but I figure I should start the new year with a bang!

So here I go, the last year was as usual full of blessings and crap hard times. We moved to Missouri only to be snowed in for 3 weeks. First week: awesome!! Second week: not too shabby. Third week: (scratching walls) get me OUT of hereeeee!!! Okay well you get the point.

We listed our home for sale only to have a total loser not so good real estate agent. Who did not "realize" our home got broken into and things were stolen.

Then the move to Louisiana is delayed due to some Army related stuff I cant really post about at this time. We finally move, 14 hrs driving (did a DITY move) pregnant and hot (no, not that kind of hot but hot as in i am going to melt hot, though you are free to think otherwise hehe) and 3 kids who were super awesome about the WHOLE thing.

Move forward to arriving to LA (the state) totally liked the area, messed up roads, crappy health care and all.

We welcome our 4th child, a son, on August and name him Dominick. Only to see him through a glass crib for the first 4 weeks and hold him for 2 more before he was transferred to a different hospital due to Congenital Heart Defect.

A semi messed up c-section. Trust me I will spare us all the details.

I managed to overeat my stress because I seem to have been born with the idea that I can handle it and should not bother anyone with my worries. It could also be in how I was raised-parent involvement was BELOW minimal. We'll leave it at that.

SO although it looks like a "whine" fest it is not.

It is starting 2012 being grateful for ALL of the things that happened in our lives. The thing is, if my life was an easy one I probably would have turned out to be somewhat different then I am today.

A little less grateful, a little less hardworking and a lot MORE conceited ;)

As we reflect in the things to come this year we need to remember that everything happens for a reason and don't forget to look for the blessing that is hidden. It will reveal something about you that you may have overlooked before.

During the hard times, I was able to reconnect with friends who helped find an awesome real state agent who help us take care of all our real estate needs.

Had friends willing to drive from out of state to help move the remaining stuff into MO,

Met wonderful new friends here.

Shared in the process of becoming a "heart mom" with many moms (and dads too) who know exactly what we are going through.

I have learned to be strong in my convictions and to not for one minute buy into the idea that a doctor is really looking out for what my child or my best interests are. Sadly not many doctors are.

(note to friends from Kansas count your blessings the docs at NMRMC and AC are phenomenal hands down)

Have learned who I can truly count on and who after 20+ years still hasn't figured out how to grow the heck up.

One crappy tough moment at a time ;)

Have learned that I was blessed with a wonderful, supportive husband that is my strength when I fell I have none, 4 amazing children who have unique blessing to bring and without whom I would not have a soul searching for my Lord.

Everyday brings a new chance to recognize the blessings, go ahead and grasp that and keep it close to your heart. It will shape you into a better person.