Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Kicking and screaming in the New Year.....

Okay so I am not literally doing so (although sometimes I have been seriously contemplating it) but I figure I should start the new year with a bang!

So here I go, the last year was as usual full of blessings and crap hard times. We moved to Missouri only to be snowed in for 3 weeks. First week: awesome!! Second week: not too shabby. Third week: (scratching walls) get me OUT of hereeeee!!! Okay well you get the point.

We listed our home for sale only to have a total loser not so good real estate agent. Who did not "realize" our home got broken into and things were stolen.

Then the move to Louisiana is delayed due to some Army related stuff I cant really post about at this time. We finally move, 14 hrs driving (did a DITY move) pregnant and hot (no, not that kind of hot but hot as in i am going to melt hot, though you are free to think otherwise hehe) and 3 kids who were super awesome about the WHOLE thing.

Move forward to arriving to LA (the state) totally liked the area, messed up roads, crappy health care and all.

We welcome our 4th child, a son, on August and name him Dominick. Only to see him through a glass crib for the first 4 weeks and hold him for 2 more before he was transferred to a different hospital due to Congenital Heart Defect.

A semi messed up c-section. Trust me I will spare us all the details.

I managed to overeat my stress because I seem to have been born with the idea that I can handle it and should not bother anyone with my worries. It could also be in how I was raised-parent involvement was BELOW minimal. We'll leave it at that.

SO although it looks like a "whine" fest it is not.

It is starting 2012 being grateful for ALL of the things that happened in our lives. The thing is, if my life was an easy one I probably would have turned out to be somewhat different then I am today.

A little less grateful, a little less hardworking and a lot MORE conceited ;)

As we reflect in the things to come this year we need to remember that everything happens for a reason and don't forget to look for the blessing that is hidden. It will reveal something about you that you may have overlooked before.

During the hard times, I was able to reconnect with friends who helped find an awesome real state agent who help us take care of all our real estate needs.

Had friends willing to drive from out of state to help move the remaining stuff into MO,

Met wonderful new friends here.

Shared in the process of becoming a "heart mom" with many moms (and dads too) who know exactly what we are going through.

I have learned to be strong in my convictions and to not for one minute buy into the idea that a doctor is really looking out for what my child or my best interests are. Sadly not many doctors are.

(note to friends from Kansas count your blessings the docs at NMRMC and AC are phenomenal hands down)

Have learned who I can truly count on and who after 20+ years still hasn't figured out how to grow the heck up.

One crappy tough moment at a time ;)

Have learned that I was blessed with a wonderful, supportive husband that is my strength when I fell I have none, 4 amazing children who have unique blessing to bring and without whom I would not have a soul searching for my Lord.

Everyday brings a new chance to recognize the blessings, go ahead and grasp that and keep it close to your heart. It will shape you into a better person.


  1. I am visiting from Catholic Mom online. I have a heart baby as well. Although she was 6 when it was discovered and repaired. Wasn't it St. katherine of Avila that said something to God about all the crap he sent her as she was doing his work? I think it was her and she said, "It is no wonder you have so many enemies considering this is the way you treat your friends." From the year you had I would say that God Must REALLY REALLY Love You. I pray that next year brings you a little peace. Happy New Year.

  2. @Neen

    Thank you for visiting, I am glad that things turned out well with your daughter what a blessing. I agree God has EXTREME confidence in me lol. Will be praying for you as well.